Saturday, 30 August 2008
hello! my grandmother's supposed to visit me today,but i cant be bothered.Cca got canceled today.Moday and Tuesday is a holiday.Boring....
U know,the only reason why my grandmother come and visit is to critisize me and my family,its so damn irritating and annoying just o actually think about it.
She would go like"why dont you try and do this and that this and that" like as if her solutions were so darn brilliant she loves to give people irrelevant advices because she doesnt know what the hell is actulaly happening and she acts like as if she knew every single damn thing happening under the sun.Thats what happens when people are actually too hungry for significancemthey want EVERYONE TO KNOW that they are so damn hgelpful while they are actually making a simpler conflict into a more intricate ones.-.= and yet another reason why i despise my relatives so much.
Tuesday, 26 August 2008
hello peepos.i've got time today, so i come to the lan shop again.its not that im allowed in here at this time of the day anyway,i got locked outside my house.nobody's in the house and im locked up and i never had the intention to stay outside my house like an idiot.so....here am i.anyway.what i wanted to write was about my family/ relatives whatever you call them.Those mo'fo's
first,they told me(my aunts) that they want me to continue studying.fine i appreciate the good will.but on the other hand they are being an utter jackass.Why? because it is the basic requirements that isnt fulfilled.can anyone tell me that they've been studying in shcool for at least a year without the basic fundemental stationaries??i mean they are doing things at half measure you see.what i dont like about this is that if you want to help,then dont do things in half measures because instead of helping you are actually putting more pressure on me because i have to bear with all the half doings that every single mo'fuckin one of them is doing and i am being sandwiched in between.its not like i havent got enough things to worry about...
They always thinks that im a mere child,ignorant,completely oblivious to whatever's happening around me.They are not treating me like a 18 going on 19 young man.Damn...this is discrimination.When someone dont say anything or show anything it doesnt mean that he/she doesnt know anything.I mean take wind for example.when you feel the wind caressing your hair do you ACTUALLY SEE THE WIND?no...but do you feel it?YES im wondering why cant some people understand this simple common sense.maybe its true that common sense is not so COMMON afterall.
anyway,back to my cursed relatives.When i actually voiced out my opinion,(well i do admitt i was rude)BUT i just couldnt help it anymore i mean she just keep CONVENIENTLY assumed that i am actualy delaying my entrance to my new school while on the other hand i've actually told her that I AM SO GODDAMN BORED AT HOME,i was practically wasting all my youths away at home,doing nothing,man...i dont like that but its just that she dont seem to understand the verb 'boring' itself or"GODDAMN BORED" added up.and she was telling me off like as if i was so bloody ignorant,and like im some rude bleeding imbecile.I cant blame her for getting pissed off but she had obviously crossed herline and my tolerance level.18 YEARS of my life i had always put up with my "blood relatives" and im questioning the relativity of this subject now.i mean 18 years i've put up with their nonsense coonvenient assumptions about how rude and uncontrollable i have been ever since i went over to singapore to study i mean this is ridiculous.They are forgetting one example of the vicious cycle.CAUSE AND EFFECT,unknown cause results in unimaginable effects when the effects not solved problem appears again and again one after another.And if they can actually be bothered to ask i'd tell them what's the simple reason why i've been trying to stay away from home.Lack of communications,i dont feel that they are listening to me.Just because they are adults they again,assumed that they have more experiences in life which is true but not on my case,they definitely didnt have the expereince of handling their first born so well,well my current rebellious behaviour is the by product of this simple CAUSE AND EFFECT CYCLE.
whatever it is me being not heard by my parents had somehow activated this 'indifference mechanism' that everyone has.It just came to a point whereby i just dont care anymore if they are gonna give a damn to my problems or be a good parents,which in my opinion is actually quite sad.this indifferent mechanism just kicks in you see and i dont see anyway to revert the cause,reason being im not interested in doing so myself....
Anyway,school's allright...im thinking of joining dance club and the comp club in hope that i can use the comp since my comp is freeking spoiled...
My relatives always says"Ryan's this and that.." i just decided that i dont want to put up with all their nonsenses anymore im gonna start upstaging revolts,believe me they would hate me more,but who gives a SHIT!? well at least i dont,i actually intend to severe all my ties with them after i start earning money,my family's downfall wasnt the only thing that trigggers my high stress level and i dont need insults from them,if they aren't gonna help my family from its current state then fine,i appreciate it enough but if they were to launch anymore insults i swear they'll pay for making me an underdog.
well i guess thats enough for today...i'll update it periodically probably every week or once every fortnight till then see you people.
Aidos!
Saturday, 23 August 2008
hello people!!
this blog is actually created so that i could keep you guys updated on my "dramatic state of my current life" i'll start to update it next week and i'll try my best to update it every week.
summarising things that happened for the week and consecutively.
Ciao!!
